Bouncing Back

I hate the feeling of not being in control. The past 2 days are a perfect example of that. After I had my accident (see here) I couldn't get a hold of it and say Okay it happened now get over it. Instead, I ate. I ate my emotions away. Here a copy of what I had: (for accountability purposes)

Wednesday:
1 1/2 cups Oatmeal w/ 1 TBSP of brown sugar & 1 TBSP of almonds

2 cups of Spaghetti Squash
1 Chicken breast, grilled

3 cups Frozen Yogurt  (11 pts!!!)
1/2 Blueberries
1/2 cup of raspberries
1/4 cup of dried cranberries

1 Chicken breast, grilled
1 serving of Zucchini and Spaghetti Squash Lasagna


Thursday:
1cup Oatmeal w/ 1 TBSP of brown sugar & 1 TBSP of sunflower seeds
7 (estimate) Hershey's Kisses
1 Pumpkin Butterfinger (don't know how may pts, 10?)

1 1/2 cups of strawberries
2 cups of grapes
2 servings of Zucchini & Spaghetti Squash Lasagna  (with extra cheese)
10 pieces of Chettos Puffs

4 pieces of some meat my mom made
1 1/2 servings of Zucchini & Spaghetti Squash Lasagna
1 Taco with about 4oz of ground beef 80/20

I was amazed at how much junk I put into my body the past couple of days. I 'm sure that there is something in there that I missed. To be honest, I don't want to eat like that anymore. I've said this before, I used to lie to people that I had eaten already and would stuff myself with more food. I felt that way last night. I wanted to tell my boyfriend that I hadn't eaten as much as I had. I told him anyway.

I hadn't felt the feeling of being REALLY full in a few weeks. Wednesday and Thursday, I felt like this. I was feeding my body more food than it was asking me for. I caught myself looking at the cereal on top of the fridge looking for a quick fix of sweets. I didn't get any. Instead I poured a cold glass of water. I knew this would all be emotional but I didn't think I'd be crying so much! I've been behaving this way all my life. I remember days when I would eat as much as I could because I said I would start my diet on Monday. It was always, this is the Monday. Well, this is my Thursday to bounce back. I cannot let 2 days define my week or me!

=)